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Click here to learn more“She did not survive to stay silent.
She survived to speak.”
Tanis Octavius · Back Sliding: Sphere of Consequence
Nine Thresholds
Each place was a world. Each world had a price.
The voice came before the final page. What you are hearing is the archive as it is being remembered.
Chapter One · Puerto Rico
Musica Con Vida
& the Machine Elf
“Beauty and brutality. The jungle didn’t know the difference between them, and neither, yet, did she.”
Chapter Two · America
One Way Ticket
& the Out-of-Body Door
“The body left before she did. It was showing her the way.”
Chapter Three · Lexington, Kentucky
Speed Demons
& a Magick Carpet
“The rug was a map of time. She had been here before. She had always known the way out.”
Chapter Four · Lexington, Kentucky
Club 141
& the Dancefloor Temple
“The dancefloor was the only altar she had ever chosen for herself.”
Chapter Five · Memory & Divorce
a Mansion
& Forsaking All Again
“The second forsaking is always the one that breaks you open.”
Chapter Six · Lexington, Kentucky
a Gimp
& the Dyme
“The same practices used to control can be used to heal. The difference is who holds the intention.”
Chapter Seven · Lexington, Kentucky
The Naming
& the Hazing
“The body remembers everything the mind agrees to forget.”
Chapter Eight · Mammoth Cave, Kentucky
The Subterranean
Harvest
“She said no to the last thing they would ever ask of her.”
Chapter Nine · Vegas
Exile
& Reclamation
“To name it is to reclaim it. She survived to speak.”
A true story told as autobiographical fiction, a memoir.
A ritual. A survival map.
This is not a story about being broken. It is a story about what it takes to remember who you were before the world decided for you; before the doctrine, the handlers, the harvest. The events are real. The voice is real. The form is autobiographical fiction; because some truths can only be fully told through the freedom of that frame.
The story moves through real systems, real institutions, real countries, real disappearances, real recoveries, underground networks, psychic collapse, survival work, and the long reconstruction of identity after coercive control. Some names and structures have been altered through the lens of autobiographical fiction, but the emotional and lived reality remains intact.
Back Sliding: Sphere of Consequence is the first book of the Time Tenders Tetralogy; a four-part first-person testimony crossing continents, decades, and dimensions. Cult exposé. Psychic awakening. Sovereign reclamation. Told by the woman who lived it.
You do not need to believe in the metaphysical to understand survival. Whether you hear this as memoir, metaphor, testimony, or ritual, the journey remains the same.
This is not a linear memoir.
Time here clusters by theme.
By body memory.
By the way trauma actually lives.
Not in sequence but in echo. The past interrupts the present. The present rewrites the past. That is the nature of the Sphere of Consequence.
The manuscript waited decades. The voice did not.
Part one of a four-book journey. Grounded in lived experience. Written as witness. Now available to hear; in the author’s own words; before the 2027 publication.
The story that started everything.
Publishing 2027 · Audio Now
The body survives what the mind cannot hold.
Coming Soon
Power misused. Power reclaimed.
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The final confrontation was never outside.
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The Time Tenders Tetralogy · Book One · A Live Audio Series
Back Sliding
Sphere of Consequence
Book One of Four · Publishing 2027
Born inside a global cult. Escaped with nothing but a vow and a daughter. The world outside had its own kind of darkness.
Recorded before publication. Told in the author’s own voice while the manuscript is still being written.
Writing to Yourself
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© Time Tenders Tetralogy 2026
Heal Your Story
Know
Yourself
09
Methods of Writing
Scripting
Your Future
30
Types of Dreams
Lucid
39
Commitment Ceremony
Council
of Self
63
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Heal Your Story
Generational trauma. Self-concept. Understanding dissociation. The cards that name what happened so you can begin to write past it.
Methods of Writing
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Types of Dreams
Lucid. Replays. Wish fulfillment. False awakenings. Each dream type decoded so the subconscious has somewhere to land.
Integration Methods
Astrology. Your natal chart. The first, second, and third book. The full system for weaving what you discover into how you live.
Commitment Ceremony
Consecration. Solidifying intention. Council of Self. Summoning energy. The ritual cards for when writing becomes a vow.
I am a small independent author completing this work myself, chapter by chapter. The inaugural print run opens at 250 patrons. Every person who adds the deck is directly making it real. This is not a corporation. It is one woman with a story to finish and the belief that it is worth finishing.
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To help you process the intensity of this journey, you will receive my foundational guide, Writing to Yourself. This is the exact methodology I used to bridge the gap between surviving the cult and reclaiming my magick. It is the “pen” you will use to write your own way out.
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Twin Within
Dark NRG · The Manual for the Flame
While we record the story of the beginning, you receive the methodology of the end. This is the completed metaphysical codex, a prescriptive guide to reclaiming the Dark Divine Feminine and shattering the inorganic matrix.
Note: This is a ritual manual containing raw protocols for Female Blood Rituals. It is the “transactional currency” used to void ancient ancestral contracts.
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